Meaghan Just Wants Pizza Hut

My good friend Meaghan had her RNY Gastric Bypass in September of 2013. She has had a hard time with food, especially lately as she is transitioning into solid food. As she is starting to feel hunger again, she has cravings for things she can’t have, like Pizza Hut Pizza. I don’t think that there has been a day this week that she hasn’t talked about Pizza Hut pizza and that all she wants to do is eat an entire pizza pie. Portions are starting to frustrate her. When she finds something she likes, she wants to eat a lot of it (as all of us do) and she can’t. She had just read another post on my blog yesterday, and she typed this to me (we were talking VIA IM at work)

“So, some day you may have pasta again, and you may be able to eat all of those yummy things.. but its not the same. Imagine going from a BOWL of pasta to 2 fork fulls broken down into strand size bites… its SOOOO frustrating! I just want to pick up a slice of pizza and devour it and NOT get the tightness in my chest or the nausea feeling. I miss THAT!”
I thought about that a lot for the rest of my day. I know eating a lot of food is probably my major downfall when it comes to losing weight. I have always struggled with portion control, and I know that when I did Weight Watchers 500 times, that I really had to be meticulous with my portions and measuring. It was horrific to see the serving size I was supposed to be eating compared to that I had been eating. Through out the last year or so, I have really been paying attention to my portions and trying to lessen them. I do eat a lot less then I used to, and that has contributed to my 20lb weight loss. But two bites of food, how can you SURVIVE? (enter dramatic music here)

This was only for three people

I remember recently having a conversation with my Mom about this. My boyfriend, my mom and I all went out to have sushi. Not realizing how much sushi we actually ordered, we were surprised when the waiter came out with a BOAT of sushi. As we are eating, my mom probably had four pieces, and she knew she was full, and was frustrated because she wanted more, it was SO good. But she knew she was satisfied, and enjoyed the sushi that she could eat. I want to get to that point with food- To have a little, enjoy it fully, and feel satisfied.

(One little positive tidbit I want to interject is that my mom has to take home everything she orders from a restaurant. Since she still can’t eat a lot- she takes half of it home and eats it the next day. It’s like two meals for one. That wouldnt’ be that bad. Plus, I’d probably save a boatload of money on groceries.)

So I was mulling all of this over yesterday during the day, then had Zumba after work. So last night my boyfriend made me dinner (he is such a good cook) because I was getting home late after working out. We recently found this yellow saffron rice that we love. (Rice is probably one of my favorite foods, I could eat it every day) This rice tastes so good I could eat just that. But I decided I would challenged myself only to eat a little bit, not quite as small of a portion as I would be able to eat if I had the surgery- but smaller then normal. I couldn’t stop myself from having one more spoonful while I was putting the leftovers away for my lunch tomorrow. I was going to have it for lunch the next day, and I couldn’t help myself from having just one more bite. Seriously???

I have come to the conclusion that I will probably pop my pouch if I have this surgery because I can’t control my eating habits-

Okay well maybe not- but again these are the things I think about. Can I handle only having 3-5 oz of Thanksgiving dinner?

Believe it or not, this is a small Thanksgiving dinner for us

Also- it will really suck having to pay the same amount for everyone else, especially for things like hibachi and buffets when I am only eating a tiny bit. They should have Gastric Bypass specials. Why should I be discriminated against- I want food equality!!! (No, I won’t go storming to congress with this, but think about it!)