Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!
This is probably the most exciting New Year I’ve ever had. For once I will actually be able to stick to my New Years Resolution.
Here they are:
1. To have my RNY Surgery and lose at least 65lbs by 2015
2. Try harder to keep in touch with my family and friends
3. Run a 5k.
I have kept my resolution pretty modest, in hopes that I actually accomplish them.
Monday I have my consultation appointment with my surgeon. I am nervous and excited at the same time. I am shooting for a March appointment, this will give me enough time to get all of my qualifying appointments done and my sick time will renew in March so I don’t have to go on disability.
I also need to start all the paperwork for my financial assistance through the hospital. If I don’t do this, then there is no point for me to start this process because I won’t be able to afford it.
I am going to take a photo of myself on the day of my consultation, and its possible that I document my weight. It’s hard to post your weight before you have actually lost it. Not even my mother knows how much I weight right now. It is such an embarrassing thing, and it is a hard thing to embrace. I think I have done a good job being proud of taking a stand to make my life better, and diffused the negative people who have no idea the struggle I went through my entire life from having an effect on me. I had an incident with a family member that I thought I may talk about on here, but I have already said what I needed to say about this surgery, I don’t need to reiterate it again. But posting about my weight and not having lost weight is something so different.
In other news, I was able to go back to Michigan for a week during Christmas, and we went to the Henry Ford museum it was wonderful! They had an Avatar exhibit that I just loved! Here is a photo of me in the shoes of what would have been an Avatar character its to show how much bigger they are!
Well after 5 hours in the museum and another 3 walking around the little town they call Greenfield Village, I thought my feet and ankles were going to fall off. During the last hour of the museum I was telling my mom how much my feet hurt, and she said, “My feet never hurt anymore.”
Is that possible? I can’t ever, EVER, remember a time my feet didn’t hurt after being on them for so long. I thought that was just what happened, you are on your feet for a long time, they hurt. But I don’t think I ever realized that my weight contributed that much to my feet. It makes a lot of sense now that I think about it, but it just got me even more excited to start this process.
I also told my boyfriends mom, grandma, and aunt over the weekend (His brother and father were in the room, but I don’t think they heard.) I am very relieved to have this off my chest with them, and they are excited for me! I am happy to have so much support from my family and friends. It really makes so much of a difference to have that positiveness.
To all the haters, I AM having this surgery, please stop projecting your negative energy onto me.
Now, here is a really beautiful picture of my boyfriend and I at Greenfield Village- this is the unedited version to show my full body
As much as I love this photo, I cropped it on facebook so it would only show my top half, because I look SO much bigger in my coat. The only thing that would have made this photo better is if I was thinner.
Ah, the problems of the fatties.
This is probably the most exciting New Year I’ve ever had. For once I will actually be able to stick to my New Years Resolution.
Here they are:
1. To have my RNY Surgery and lose at least 65lbs by 2015
2. Try harder to keep in touch with my family and friends
3. Run a 5k.
I have kept my resolution pretty modest, in hopes that I actually accomplish them.
Monday I have my consultation appointment with my surgeon. I am nervous and excited at the same time. I am shooting for a March appointment, this will give me enough time to get all of my qualifying appointments done and my sick time will renew in March so I don’t have to go on disability.
I also need to start all the paperwork for my financial assistance through the hospital. If I don’t do this, then there is no point for me to start this process because I won’t be able to afford it.
I am going to take a photo of myself on the day of my consultation, and its possible that I document my weight. It’s hard to post your weight before you have actually lost it. Not even my mother knows how much I weight right now. It is such an embarrassing thing, and it is a hard thing to embrace. I think I have done a good job being proud of taking a stand to make my life better, and diffused the negative people who have no idea the struggle I went through my entire life from having an effect on me. I had an incident with a family member that I thought I may talk about on here, but I have already said what I needed to say about this surgery, I don’t need to reiterate it again. But posting about my weight and not having lost weight is something so different.
In other news, I was able to go back to Michigan for a week during Christmas, and we went to the Henry Ford museum it was wonderful! They had an Avatar exhibit that I just loved! Here is a photo of me in the shoes of what would have been an Avatar character its to show how much bigger they are!
Huge Feet!!
Well after 5 hours in the museum and another 3 walking around the little town they call Greenfield Village, I thought my feet and ankles were going to fall off. During the last hour of the museum I was telling my mom how much my feet hurt, and she said, “My feet never hurt anymore.”
Is that possible? I can’t ever, EVER, remember a time my feet didn’t hurt after being on them for so long. I thought that was just what happened, you are on your feet for a long time, they hurt. But I don’t think I ever realized that my weight contributed that much to my feet. It makes a lot of sense now that I think about it, but it just got me even more excited to start this process.
I also told my boyfriends mom, grandma, and aunt over the weekend (His brother and father were in the room, but I don’t think they heard.) I am very relieved to have this off my chest with them, and they are excited for me! I am happy to have so much support from my family and friends. It really makes so much of a difference to have that positiveness.
To all the haters, I AM having this surgery, please stop projecting your negative energy onto me.
Now, here is a really beautiful picture of my boyfriend and I at Greenfield Village- this is the unedited version to show my full body
Aren’t we cute!!?
As much as I love this photo, I cropped it on facebook so it would only show my top half, because I look SO much bigger in my coat. The only thing that would have made this photo better is if I was thinner.
Ah, the problems of the fatties.
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