August 6th, 2014

After all my bitching, complaining, frustrations, hard work, dieting, and phone calls, I FINALLY have gotten my surgery date and have been APPROVED!! This last process has taken almost a MONTH just to get my approval date. I had my last appointment on April 14th, where I got my final approval. It took them almost a month to fax paperwork.

There are a lot of emotions going through my head right now- the first one is disappointment. I know I know- I’ve been waiting for this since January, I should be excited! But I am disappointed because it’s not earlier, and it could have been if my paperwork was faxed in a timely manner. I wanted it earlier in the summer so I could heal before a lot of other things that are coming up in the fall, and I wanted to be able to start hiking and doing more active things this summer. But- I will be losing a bit more weight before the surgery, so being active this summer will help do that. So I will try to stay positive.

I am VERY excited too- because I have waited for this for a while, and I can’t believe it is really happening. I DO feel like a huge weight has been lifted and like I can finally relax and get my stuff together. I have exactly 3 months to get everything I need, organize my life, and prepare. But I’m also really nervous. About the surgery itself, the pain, the life changing experience. As soon as I found out my date, I instantly got butterflies in my stomach and was nervous. I really don’t know how I’ll be once they are actually prepping me for surgery. I’ll probably need to be tranq’d.


In other news:
Tuesday, one of my best friends, Kelly, had her Gastric Bypass. I went to visit her at the hospital that day to see how she was, and to spend some time with her. She was just glowing, it’s the only way I can really describe her. She was so happy and excited, like she knew only good things were going to happen from that point forward. She said to me, “I feel so great! I woke up, and I said ‘Wow, it really happened. No one can deny me, no one can take it away. It actually happened. I did it.”

A few days later, she is in a bit of pain, and she gets to go home today, but I know her thoughts haven’t changed. She still feels great despite the pain, her doctor and nurses said how amazing she is doing, and I am so happy and proud for her. I PRAY that I do HALF as well as she has done.

I feel so lucky to have these amazing woman in my life who have been able to experience this before me, so I can learn from them and they can guide me into the next stage of life. Not many people going through this process can say that not only do that have an amazing support system, but they have multiple people who have had the surgery and can share their experiences. And even though this has been a long process, and continues to be a long process, I am very thankful that I am even able to do this. I hope the next three months will go quickly!