I haven't been posting here at all.
Life occasionally takes over.
In a year, I've lost 102 lbs., 48 inches, 5 dress sizes, a half a shoe size, and a ring size.
I can eat pretty much anything, which is more harmful then it is helpful.
I still struggle with things that I eat, how much I eat, and why I feel the need to continue to eat.
Ice cream and milk makes me feel sick.
I work out 3-4 times a week between the gym and spin class.
This is the place to be honest, if I can't be honest in my own blog, where can I be? I really don't like that I am posting specific things about my weight, it makes me uncomfortable, but in order to move past my negative thoughts, I need to get it all out.
The things that are pissing me off the most is that I cannot get under 200lbs. I am barely into a pair of jeans I wore in high school, and I don't think I'll feel thin until those are too big. I am the same as I was in high school, I am not the thinnest I have ever been. I have a specific idea in my head of what I want to look like, and I don't think I'll feel good about myself until I am there.
I have put on my goal jeans, and that felt amazing. I haven't worn them since the summer I was 15. They are from express, and I buttoned and zipped them without laying down. I think I'll feel really good once I can wear them in public.
I'll try to post more about my journey. Hopefully the next time I post, I'll be in ONEderland (which is when the scale starts with a 1)
Until next time :)
