Friday, November 14, 2014

A Different Journey

I cancelled everything with my old website provider and officially only have my blog here. I am sad that I couldn't make it work, but happy to be getting a lot of money back.

I really wanted to get into blogging and try to do it professionally. I thought I had a unique idea and it is something I know a lot of people go through. But after the newness wore off it started to become a chore for me to update, and I think my writing suffered because of it. I know I am a talented writer, I have been told that by a variety of people. But this blog is not my best work, and I am disappointed in it. So rather then waste money on something that isn't going to help me make money, I am going to continue with it on a free site so I can continue to document my journey, but maybe without so much pressure I can work on my writing as well.

I have needed a creative outlet for a while, and since I am not ready to try to do anything with my acting, I need to do it with my writing. I have been working on a book for a while, and I think I finally have a clear vision. Finishing this book is something that is now very important to me. I wish I could afford to take a year or 6 months off work so that I could write, but I can't do that. So I am going to work on it whenever I can, whenever inspiration strikes.

When something happens that is disappointing in life, you have to find the courage to pick yourself back up and make the best of it. I am going to continue to stay positive about my blog even if it isn't what I wanted it to be, and put that energy into my book.

Maybe I'll make something out of that.

I know this has nothing to do with my weight loss journey, but its a journey all the same.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

3 months post op

Well it feels good to have my blog back to it's old home. I decided it wasn't worth spending the money on a paid site for something that is now a hobby. 

Things are going very well with my after-surgery life. I hit my three month mark on 11/6 and I have lost 40 lbs since my surgery, and 60 lbs since my heights weight. I am taking a spin class and Zumba, while also going to the gym. I have more energy, I feel better about myself, and I am much healthier. I no longer am on blood pressure meds or at risk of having to get a c-pap for sleep apnea. My feet and knees don't hurt as much, and I am wearing clothes that I haven't worn in 5 years.

I still eat too fast, which causes food to get stuck in my esophagus. I have to walk around and burp a lot to try and get it un-lodged and into my stomach. It's painful and I try to remember to chew chew chew. I have to take a lot of vitamins and taking them all together fills my stomach with a lot of water. I still am not eating sugar, rice or pasta. I do occasionally have a little bread, but not an entire sandwich or anything. I have had wine, and that seems to be fine. I won't be drinking hard liquor or beer for a while. The only thing that bothers me is when I drink too much milk.

Now that it's winter, I am freezing ALL the time. Mostly I feel it in my hands, even though they are the only things on my body that isn't smaller. I feel like I should be wearing gloves all the time.

I think the thing I love the most is how I feel about myself. I feel so much better about me, not just how I look, but my heath as well. I love how much I am improving in my spin class, every class I get stronger and have more endurance. I feel so great being able to work out without pain or feeling like its a wasted effort. I know for sure if I continue to eat well and exercise, I will be the weight I always wanted to be. I have never had that feeling better. I may actually wear a size 12, and be able to go hiking. My dream will come true. I've never been able to say that before and mean it.

Friday, November 7, 2014

New/Old Blog

Well, after a lot of soul searching, I've decided to remove my blog from the paid site and brought it back to blogspot. I am not updating it as often as i'd like, and it turned into work rather then something I enjoyed.

Once upon a time I hoped to get my blog out there to start earning money from it. But I have no idea what I am doing when it comes to websites and technical things, so it just ends up frustrating me. I will continue my journey though this free blog for my own reference and for those who love me enough to read this.